i need a new social circle, a new social life, away from all that’s past, away from what i’m having now. albeit the awkwardness of this moment in time. a new circle, keep the ones that matter, throw out the ones that don’t. if they can’t stay with you, be magnanimous and sane and carefree to let them leave. focus on finding the lifetimes, not the seasons, not the reasons. don’t get lost in the search either, don’t get muddled by those who try but never succeed in being the lifetimes. ive found some, and i’m sure those are ones i’m keeping for life.
id take all the blame, all if there’s any. im not the old moderately ego act know it all anymore. the best lesson ive ever had is the lesson on humility. though i never aced it or had good results when i practised it, i can’t forget it. chill and be cool about it, all the pain and stress and tears. seek out the joy left in life, squeeze out every ounce of happiness anyone can muster. even if no one’s gonna care, that doesnt give me enough reason not to as well. be different, be yourself, be true. don’t let the unworthies get you down, don’t let the negativity slow you somemore. you know where you’re headed, pick up the pace and start dashing like you never did.
estee reminded me of this coolios group i had in my msn list. i named it ‘chatterbox’ and she started laughing god knows why over it. but inside i stored some of the best friends i ever had, some of the friends id always keep. the group gets updated once in a while, but some inside are simply everlasting. im gonna update it now before sharing.
iggy, kenneth, charlton, elton, chunyong, han ren, wengkeong, changda, leongying, ziyad, weijian, bih yau, junrong, estee.
there ya have it. it lacks the vj factor now, but maybe in a year’s time the list would get bigger. i don’t know. haha. there’re so many things i wanna get done this year i suddenly realised, many involving the people in the list mentioned above.
kbox and ikea with estee chua the dinosaur. head back to explore vs with yu changda. mug more at random spots around marine parade and east coast with kok weng keong and the addictive tap tap. cook at elton quek’s house. have a blast at orientation prep with charlton tan and the other ogls. gossip about people with leong ying during arts lectures. meet up with the junior four. find more chances to hang out with iggy ho and lim han ren. msn online with kenneth tay while mugging our asses off. too many things, but they aren’t that hard are they.
and this is the news ive been keeping but i told kenneth wengkeong and changda and ziyad. i got the ong chit chung leadership award for vs speech day, and something tells me that maybe i shouldn’t hold it in that high regard i had back in sec 3 when it was still astar award before it was renamed. the direct predecessor hadn’t been exactly the role model to look up to, and having awesome earlier recipients like calvin han doesn’t help either. i don’t know if i should be happy or sad, but i must smile for the camera musn’t i.
this has been one of my best and favourite posts ever even though its not typed in proper formats and all and its how i typed when i first started out and maybe its the indirect cause of my inspiration. there’s math tomorrow and im not exactly giving shit about it since i know id fail without trying. but then there’s cse which i shall intensely mug for since its my best shot at an ‘a’ or a ‘b’.
now i recall all the people ive been inspired by and they remain rather amazing in my view. some may have huge egos but they’re awesome people if you ever got to know them. i wanna get genuine applause when i receive that award on the eighteen of july. true affirmation. though i think that’s a lot to ask for, i still wish. its dreams that take the first step to make people big after all.
yes that’s all i shall end off nicely and prolly end this up on facebook as well for the awesome people in it who don’t read my blog. xD